Tag: unrequited love

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October 11, 2020

I played hand and hand with death

Just for fun

Because I loved it

Milkyways and eggshells shadows glinted

I gravitated

I’ve been disassociating more this past week. Zoning out, going to different realities and freezing. Yesterday while driving I forgot where I was, where I was going, and what I was doing for like 10 seconds before I remembered. I was looking around frantically trying to grab hold of something I could remember. And while in the car with X he was handing me money and talking something I could care less about and I was elsewhere and I heard him but was unable to understand him. I’m neutral about it. Just observing. Curious to see what’s the root to my aloofness…

Today was a weird day and when I got X… and looked him in the eye. I felt grounded with his being, his golden beam. I locked eyes for as long as I could. And I felt home.

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November 7, 2020

I rose. I watched him sleep

He rose. I sang grand risings.

He went to the bathroom. I sang so proud. He danced so proudly and stomped

I cleaned. He made a mess

We brushed our teeth

He drank water. I toke a shower. He came along to keep me company. We talked

I reminded myself that I didn’t own him and he remembered that he owned me…

We talked the whole time

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For granted

How are we in love in silence
You don’t know how to touch me unless I want to be touched

How are we in love if we’re warming up on our own
you only know how to grip me

How are we in love when you won’t say a word
like there’s nothing to talk about

You pick flowers as if I’m that type of girl
as if you don’t know me at all

How are we in love

How can you look at me

Burn

Be around me and not give your all

How can you love me while leaving me stranded heartful devoted

Refusing to rub those begging feet