Gasping for your air
I turn void
I cave in
Absorbed by your flesh
Seeking words of salvation
a cure to the spell
Fatal devotion
I’ll rage without it
Won’t care about anything else
The One Who Stayed Grounded
He aroused me till numb
My heart sedated by his insanity
Caught me mid-revelation
Reaching for me at the height of his vision
.
I wanted him to come with me
But he wasn’t that type of guy
It pained him to watch me as I’d fly
Still front and center he’d release me wild
He ached to carry me whenever I fell
.
Rubbed me up with aloe vera
And intuitive kisses to heal
Wanted to make it well
Fading as I opened to it
Defeated in the win
So I held him also in sin.
Collapsed
When I experience grief
I open and everything enters.
There is no space.
I’m suffocated by spirits.
I’m blotchy, dry, aching.
— from Repetitions of RuinÂ
(incantations from the same wound)
Someone
Rooted into my soul,
he was vital, he oppressed
Potent love,
a bold kind.
Violent
His tongue barbaric
Puissant hand in hand
But he needed me.
I needed him—
I was afraid to say.
He held me.
He told me,
he’d keep me safe.
Shielding my power with his power
He was my someone
He was someone
Possessive Eclipse
What will linger when I’m gone
If time erases everything
Are some things meant to stay
I wanna leave an imprint
You’d try to forget me
But where will you ever find a ghost as haunting?
Stitched beneath your skin
A whisper in the bones
Insatiable
She has snake locs and a snake tattoo
I never knew what to do
Cause how does one trust a shape shifter
When it takes full moons to begin to see
Just too much
Just in time, and time is precious
.
She was everything
Off spectrum
Off kilter
Fit
I got lost in her labyrinth face
I slipped on her bones
I yelled at her
.
One time I hung in her pupils
Then the light hit her
I fell in
She had me follow a safe trail to her heart
It was the biggest muscle in her entire body
I was impulsive to take pictures
.
She turned into a siren
And wooed me to rest then
It was the best sleep of my existence
.
She gave me everything
I yelled at her some more
We bit each other’s thumbs and back
I heard and listened, devoured all she passioned about
Her snakes adored me, they gave me a name
And leaned in when they smelled me
.
She smelled like woods
Woods, the incense
She let me read her books of her poems
I read the ones about me first of course
They were my least favorite
So she loves me most and longer, and longer, and longest
I never expressed how I needed her to
She wouldn’t allow it
.
She’d just paint her nails
And tell me I was the seed that planted her
I just couldn’t believe it
As an insignificant star
But she let me play with her in the sky
She let me nuzzle between her inner thighs
Then confessed how she fell
.
After every dance
After every voyage
During all the silence
.
She never wanted me to draw her
She wanted me to forget
She wanted to hang out again
She wanted to take it all back
She wanted to give it all
She wished she’d never met me
She was grateful asf
.
She wanted more, expected nothing
She was insatiable
Mad; total madness
A step ahead and two steps back
I used to help her off her rocker
Gave her dimples and a heart shaped birthmark
All of her pleasurable things
.
And she never hit me back
How fucked is that
I never heard from her again
Sent me back on Earth’s shoulders; simple
Pulse
I’ve watched you evaporate
Then turn solid
You saw me
Underbelly full, in a dress
On the edge and between the lines
Form
She sways and she fades
Condensing as we name her audacious
Sometimes I shout it too
With her I had no clue
.
My love comes in all forms
She’s cold and lukewarm
When she melts I melt with her
I have faith in her rigid lorn
.
Chant and sing these warnings
She is everything
She is nothing within
On the mountain where I placed her
She was my only friend
.
I was free to scrutinize her
She was decay and serpent
Offered me to experience life freely
She wouldn’t dare come with me
I’d repent to see her nearly
Forget
Forget
Let go
I’m confused, crippled as so
Our spring through and through
We passion
We shout
We quarrel
Over your bed of moss
It feels secure to love, risk lost
Forget
Let go
Winners war
I’m not sure of what I am feeling, my heart can break, my ego; callous
What keeps me asleep is a range to run
Emotional in wake I bake the sun
Holes of bittersweet spit up, you nuzzling my breast till numb
Turning in, on and off
Tuning off, out and in
I attempt to sing those sensitive songs, I pretend with oneself, playing once upon a time
There’s no where to go as my soul is magnetic to your salvation, even here the space of our bodies deafening
I don’t know exactly why this fight takes flight, ideal is a winners war; no casualties
